Art Imitating Life

While sitting in acting class today watching a couple of my fellow students perform an exercise; I had one of those little epiphanies that pop up from time to time that really put me at ease and gave me comfort.  Up to that point, in my mind I had felt like I had a certain destination or level that I needed to reach to be successful with acting. Did that mean a part in a movie or TV show?  Possibly; but the end result was a bit less concrete than that for me.  I followed my intuition into acting.  One of the reasons that I am so drawn to acting is because it feels very cathartic to me; it feels healing.  Those moments of getting out of my head and into my heart are priceless.   And since I have been a driven, results oriented, thought processing kind of person, acting class has proven to be a refuge for me and allowed me to explore parts of myself that I either didn’t know existed or were buried deep down inside me most likely never to see the light.  It feels good to shine light on all aspects of myself.  It brings truth to the forefront and when I can stand in truth I am no longer held back by my fears and the incorrect stories I tell about myself because I can better understand them by putting them into words or released feelings.

Being that results oriented, driven person has at times served me very well. It’s helped me accomplish a lot of things that I am very proud of.  And when I began this particular acting class, in some ways I looked at it as another goal to accomplish.  Don’t get me wrong I desperately wanted it to feed my spirit while I was learning, but I also looked at it as another way to help me reach that “destination,” whatever and wherever it was.  This way of thinking put a tremendous amount of pressure on me. Instead of relaxing into this class and letting it touch me and teach me in the ways that it was supposed to, I was thinking ahead and figuring how long it would take me to be promoted to the next level.  You see my class structure is set up with a beginning, intermediate and advanced hierarchy for this particular method that we are learning and our instructors promote us when they feel we are ready. I felt like I had a huge mountain to climb.

It suddenly hit me with that way of thinking, I had totally forgotten why I enjoyed acting; which was to ultimately find that sweet spot in each exercise or scene where I would totally leave myself vulnerable, honest and open as a means of self-discovery.  To rest in that gap where I could be totally true to myself and allow myself to just be. I then realized that my reward wasn’t something down the road like a role in a movie or part in a play, but to find that sweet spot in every single exercise and scene going forward.  That is where true joy is; being present in the moment while being authentic and true to my feelings in the moment.

Life is no different as I try to be present and rest in between those seductive moments of living in the past and thinking about the future. Roadblocks that hold me back from enjoying that sweet spot and magical moment of being present for myself and truly listening to others; another example of art imitating life.

-Copyright G. Brian Benson 2013

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Published by: gbrianbenson

Founder of Reawaken Media. Writer, multiple award-winning author, TEDx speaker, actor, filmmaker, storyteller, inspirational poet, radio personality, finisher of over 50 triathlons (including 4 Ironman distance races) and cross-country bicyclist. 2016 is already heating up for Brian as he he has a recurring part on the new TV show Sangre Negra, has been invited to give a TEDx talk in Pasadena at the end of May, was interviewed for the soon to be released documentary The Last Formula and will be releasing his new film short Searching for Happiness in early summer. In addition to acting in TV and film, Brian enjoys creating his own projects. In 2011 Brian created Guitar Man, a movie project that he wrote, produced and acted in that was filmed in downtown Reno, Nevada. The movie was written by Brian with the idea of sharing the messages ‘that we all have a lot in common’ and ‘that our true gifts reside within ourselves.’ Guitar Man was well received and was accepted to 11 movie festivals and was a winner at the Love Unlimited Film and Art Festival, won an honorable mention prize in the narrative short category at the 2011 Los Angeles Movie Awards as well as a Golden Reel Award from the Nevada Film Festival. Before Brian got into acting he authored four books, including Brian’s List – 26 1/2 Easy To Use Ideas on How to Live A Fun, Balanced, Healthy Life! which was the winner of a 2009 Next Generation Indie Book Award in the Self-Help category. Brian’s latest book Finding Your Voice was an award-winning Finalist in both the 2013 USA Book News and the Indie Excellence Book Awards. Brian lives in Los Angeles, California and will be releasing his first children's book "Steve the Alien" in late October of 2016. Visit Brian's website - www.gbrianbenson.com

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8 thoughts on “Art Imitating Life”

  1. Brian, I really enjoyed this blog. I am so glad that you are learning to practice being present and fully life in that moment embracing what that gives you rather than forgetting that the journey is such an important part of life. What a gift that you are sharing this with others so that they may be reminded of the beauty of their journeys as well 🙂

  2. ~ Thank You Brian for the realization on the sweet spot :), Give us lots to think about in everyday Life & getting comfortable with living in the moment and being glad !

  3. “Life is no different as I try to be present and rest in between those seductive moments of living in the past and thinking about the future. Roadblocks that hold me back from enjoying that sweet spot and magical moment of being present for myself and truly listening to others; another example of art imitating life.”….what a brilliant way with words brian….. life is art and we for sure are the picassos

  4. Brian, I do not know you personally, but even from far away, you are an inspiring person, even one my down days, when I ask myself, God, what am I doing here, I can read something, and sometimes just one word, can lift my spirits. I know, I must sound like a “crazy person” but hey, it is what it is,

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